I live for 100.
100% certainty within decisions, giving 100% to the tasks, people & schedule before me, but even more so, expecting 100% from myself and those around me.
And it's exhausting.
These weights I've created and placed upon myself are impossibly heavy, even for my strong flesh.
I base my worth on being 100, when the only 100 God asks of me is my heart.
He wants it all, but here I am giving over the buried yuck in my heart apprehensively when I know that I can do so boldly.
I want to live in 100% surrender, 100% obedience & 100% acceptance of the grace lavished upon me when I don't.
I want to shake off my impossible standards of perfection and lay my mess before The Lord.